First of all, I am certain that homeschool, done right, would be the best thing for #1. I'm not saying that it is right for everyone under every circumstance, but the way I see it nothing can beat the love, attention and opportunity to excel that a parent can give his/her child (if it can be given). Homeschooling has become mainstream and in most places has lost the stigma attached to it of socially disabled nerds. When I think about the argument of kids not getting proper socialization I think GREAT! who wants their kids socialized by bullies, by succumbing into the group mentality, by drugs, sex and pressure to know the world? Not me. I don't think kids miss out on anything by not learning how to fight back, or how to lose their identity by wanting to be like everyone else. So bottom line, I totally advocate homeschool.
But everyone can't do it. For me, I can't. I can't be the kind of mother I want to be and be the kind of teacher I would want to be. One of those things would fail, not just falter. And to me, I have to choose to be able to be the best mom I can be. (I only say 'able to be', because I wouldn't dare say, 'be the best mom I can be'..... cause I know I never will). And as selfish as this sounds, that includes feeling sane because my house is clean, my laundry is up to date, and I have time to read and exercise. This has been a huge guilty hurdle for me to overcome. Knowing that I'm choosing 2nd best for #1.
But maybe 2nd best for #1 IS best for our family? Homeschooling moms everywhere will condemn me. They know what I know and they have chosen to give their kids the best. I've chosen to give my kids 2nd best. Sooooo......
After months of research, praying and waiting Spouse and I made the choice to send #1 to a public charter school about 10 minutes from our house. The school is new, small (K-3) and is administered by a super experienced/educated team. We've met with #1's teacher and are very impressed and happy with her. Of all the out-of-home options we have this is the best and it is more than good enough. I know there are opponents of charter schools out there, but I'll save that debate for another day..... but maybe to fan the flames I'll throw this out there: since when or where has the government ever done anything better than the private sector?
So school starts September 2nd. Thanks to Grandma J we've got a fancy (and I mean FANCY) new Barbie back-pack. We've got uniforms ready. Cheese sticks and juice boxes are ready for the lunch sack. I've just got to get myself ready to say goodbye at 8:15 on Tuesday morning.